The nightmares don't go away. They settle into the night alongside the sounds of gentle snoring and the shifting water off the darkened fishtank. Nighttime is loud, and ominous; not for the darkness, but for the stillness. The time that stretches between midnight and daybreak is infinite, unwavering, unchanging. I sit in it, sometimes trying … Continue reading Awake at 4am
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Afraid I Gave All I Had Left
I have never loved anything, or anyone, the way I loved my wife...well ex-wife. I can freely admit that now, without crawling into a corner and wishing for the world to finish caving around me. I have had so many people tear me apart, and build me up, in my life. Yet, I never had … Continue reading Afraid I Gave All I Had Left
Violin Lullaby
It is the clinking.... and the soft violin in the back that reminds me why I'm drinking alone. The soft hallelujah of distance voices and I can't tell if I spilled my drink or if I'm crying. Tell me my friend as my fingers move over the keys while the piano catches dust in the … Continue reading Violin Lullaby
Thrown back to me
2:38 am and I'm at work, refusing to sleep because of rationality. So I think of the tap of the keys and the smooth plastic underneath scarred skin and I find comfort in the reality that I am not special. I saw my vows today, and found myself wanting, because rationality has broken over and … Continue reading Thrown back to me
Faith Taryn Davies 