#2: Dear Charlie

note: this is one of many letters I've tried writing to my biological father. Dear Charlie, I keep pausing as I write this letter, because I don't know where to start. I don't know whether to start at the beginning, or to talk about the last few years. I'm not really surprised by my inability … Continue reading #2: Dear Charlie

#1: The Unsent Letter: Dear Eva

Note: I wrote this a few months ago during a bitter bout of depression. I never sent the letter to my friend, and looking back at what I wrote, I've realized just how much my thoughts and feelings have changed. Dear Eva “Lemur” Vander, Okay so the reason why you are not getting a handwritten … Continue reading #1: The Unsent Letter: Dear Eva

Day 11: Leaving Early, Sleeping Late, and Quiet Days

Day 11 almost slipped by me, It started like any other day, except I was scheduled to work a 16 hour shift. However, thanks to a scheduling error by my boss,  I got to go home after 9 so we can start the happy dance in 5...4....3...2....1..... HAAAAPPPPPYYYY DDDDAAAAAAANNNNCEEEEEE Okay enough of that ridiculousness.... Apparently my … Continue reading Day 11: Leaving Early, Sleeping Late, and Quiet Days

It was Daddy issues when I was a child

“I didn't really want to live, so anything that was an investment in time made me angry . . . but also I just felt sad. When the hopelessness is hurting you, it's the fixtures and fittings that finish you off.”-Angelina Jolie -It was- It was daddy issues when I was a child. Hormones and adolescence as … Continue reading It was Daddy issues when I was a child