I Still Exist

I used to know you, the look in your eyes. You looked strong, like an angel that saw too much for words. So, instead I cried, at the beauty in those grey eyes. The world never so bright. I know you were here. I feel the shadow of you, ghosting through my veins. Your voice firm, … Continue reading I Still Exist

Insanity

She made me feel, made me believe, that I was the abusive one. "Why are you always on the phone?" "Can you please just spend time with just me?" "I'm not comfortable with your friends." "I don't think you are a good person around him." "You are treating me like crap." "You are my wife. … Continue reading Insanity

Enclosing Darkness

I can't, I can't where did the air go, I'm trying, sucking for oxygen I know, I know it's here, it's here just have to get it into my lungs.  God they burn, my chest, hurts, like the strain of running but I'm standing, actually swaying. Hands on knees, I remember being told once hands … Continue reading Enclosing Darkness

Absolute Fear

I sent Amanda an email trying to explain what Alex's abuse meant.  You once told me, that you and I had different ideas of what abuse meant. But I don't have an idea of what it is. I have a definition. I have a reflection. Scars, and constant tears, and begging strangers paid to listen … Continue reading Absolute Fear