Awake at 4am

The nightmares don't go away. They settle into the night alongside the sounds of gentle snoring and the shifting water off the darkened fishtank. Nighttime is loud, and ominous; not for the darkness, but for the stillness. The time that stretches between midnight and daybreak is infinite, unwavering, unchanging. I sit in it, sometimes trying … Continue reading Awake at 4am

Day 17: I think my brain died

Remember when I said that I had today off? Yea, all lies. A coworker is doing something, I didn't bother with the details, but would have had to stretch to try to get back to work on-time...so my being sleep-deprived and way to nice, agreed to pick up his shift. I can't decide if I … Continue reading Day 17: I think my brain died

Images of Exhaustion

the wetness on my face is strange in contrast to the burning in my chest, rage bubbling in my chest does nothing to ease to blurring in my eyes as my body shakes in effort to stand, to smile. I feel everything...every muscle tensing to maintain balance as words slur passed my lips. I didn't … Continue reading Images of Exhaustion